Sunday, January 21, 2007

this is who iam

everyone in their lives at one point or the other comes across something or the other that they think was destined for them to reach in a certain way,as if a movie was made just because you had to watch it or a song was sung only because u were destined to relate to it or a book cover that reflected your drem....n it leaves behind this feeling of sumthin inexplicably sweet,almost like the flavour of sweet tamarind that lingers after u've tasted it.

so here's the prolouge to "me"

1.) Shall We Dance Soundtrack - Peter Gabriel - Book of Love--if you haven't heard this one,you ought to n if u're the sorts who have ever come close to finding a soulmate or well,incase you want to know what love is,this is a song everyone's got to hear or elseyoure missing out on somethin maganamously "larger than life" n the irony is its got the most simple lyrics that exhuberate beauty.

2.)Runaway bride--when i saw this movie for the first time,i was almost embarrassed watching a mock of my own life being impeccably potrayed with each detail being highlighted.When the man in the movie exclaims to the girl he's in love with saying that she herself didnt know who she was n wasn't even sure how she liked to have eggs because with every man that she dated ,she had a different life,a different role n to a certain extent a different character,that entire scene makes SO MUCH FREAKING SENSE.Its funny how when a relationship starts initially you always tend to think it'll last forever n its what you always wanted n that there would be no looking back,unfortunately you stand corrected each time untill you do find that perfect someone who doesn need a dancer or an intellectual or a shy suble girl next door or anything that "defines" you...all he wants is you...

3.)This a paticular dialogue in becker which was apparantly supposed to be a hilareous remark meant to make people laugh stirred up a food for thought in me...

"suddenly nowadays sex is more of an olympic sport or something where what counts is the performance n how good you are while doing it all.Aren't things like your feelings good enough?"

i'd been thinking about this for long before i heard this statement(cant remember it precisely ,but it was broadly on these lines)sadly,as i have now come to beleive the three letter word isn't anymore anything close to sacred.i always beleived that physical intimacy is an endorsement on how you feel for someone.however,for past few months i came across people who delireously get involved with just about anyone n things like emotions don't matter.there are married people,singles both men and women desperate to just get into each other's pants n what's even more sad is that its no more considered wrong,i don't say its unethical or morally incorrect.it's a personal prerogative but isn't it sad that women (most of em')prefer men ready to comply with "no strings attached"deal over men who'd want to marry them and settle down...isn't it sad when relationships don't start with emotional bonding but with pure lust and then if that turns out to be good there's scope for emotions to take over and suddenly oh the couple's in love!!
anyway,so witnessing al this,gettin perturbed to see that kids these days are no longer kids evey 15 yr old wants to flaunt his/her sex appeal propagating how they think long term relationships are uncool watching people say "we're going out and i really love her,but sheeesh! marriage with her!!kidding me??".i thought propbably i was just some orthodox sad loser female who was sticking to thing of the past clinging on to a hope that things like soulmates n perfect relationships exist and who was "uncool"and "narrow minded" beyond limits..however,after hearing becker i'm sure there's atleast someone who thinks like me.even if its just that script writer.m not stupid the present day scenario is rather sad.i don't need to grow up or broaden my mindset huh!!people need to wake up and stop playing around with their dignity,everyone's worth love,so rather than finding good meat wherever you can knowing its not what you will last with al your life,get your lazy ass up n about n find someone to love you..hehe now m happy....

4.)Elvis presley-You were always on my mind--this song makes me cry!literally.

5.)Ally mc beal--ok besides julia robert in runaway bride this is the character i relate to the most.i fumble,stumble,giggle,trip over and fall,sing in my mind,halucinate about choping my lecturar's head....damn!that's me...lost and clueless but i know where i come from.


list shall be contdd...a lil later!m exhausted

7 comments:

Angad Singh said...

first of all, im gonna get the songs mentioned here....and try to see your point, which im sure i will.

second....this post is pretty similar to the first post by you i commented on, which too was about relationships. now im not gonna go back and check it or something coz im too lazy too, but....i would like to say something about the topic.

well, of late i had been trying to get into some relationship, but right now, im so not into the whole thing of 'being exclusive' with someone and 'going around' and stuff, not looking anymore, kinda. and i know it sounds childish.

but i think any relationship, whether its marriage or living in or dating, should be just about the company and presence (physical, or just 'in your life' type) of that person, some might have this classy 'goin for expensive dinners' type of thing going on, some might have the more romantic (also cheaper) 'walk on the beach' thing, while some might have the kinky 'sex on the beach' vibe, it all depends on the people...and yeah, nowadays many people have commitment issues etc too that irk the other, but thats another story. its all gotta be about being there. doing fun stuff together, or not. maybe the other person basically helps you make sense of your life, like an indispensable secretary (er..bad choice of words, but can't think very well right now) and you love them, for just that. sex is really not that important. atleast i think so. i really don't have any actual experience :-D but i don't think im ready for anything like 'random sex'. too impersonal, too shit. too away from what i want sex to be for me i guess...im not trying to be mushy, and i am not. though i think relationships starting with lusty sex and ending up in love is kinda great!! coz would these ppl have given a shit about each other if their aunts and uncles had introduced them to each other hoping to get them married??? (btw, i think arranged marriage sucks) meeting for/with sex can sometimes be a good thing...for other people atleast. i don't even think thats possible with me,heehee. im happy the way i am right now, or atleast try my best to fool myself into being :-)

Angad Singh said...

wow, now hours after my last post, im thinkin' "what the hell was i thinking???"

Lucifer said...

this is so ture...moments or incidents in life when u know they were just meant for u...something which defines u...something which defines how one feels...
like when d protagonist in "tum bin" says
"yaar yeh emotions bhi kitne stupid hote hain na...logic hi nahi samajhte"
bang!!!...it hits u...n u jump outta ur seat shoutin...YES!!!!!!

lemon said...

i know what ur talking about...the first time i heard 'book of love'..i cried my heart out..!! i still dont know whether it was out of sadness or happiness..it sorta has this bitter sweet feeling to it..but i felt that that was one song that i was truly meant to listen to.....

nice post :)

Yoda said...

Steve Jobs said on one awfully inspiring speech, 'You have to find what you love even your lover'

Stay Hungry, Stay Foolish

Spider42 said...

hey, saw your comment on my blog, was intrigued so thought Id pay a visit.

You have a pretty interesting blog here, dont know why youre so upset about not being able to write - trust me on this, you seem better ate written expression than most people!(even some "writers")

You seem to be a skilled srtist too, so you shouldnt be down on yourself, though its true, artistic types (i should know) like to be down and stress and be sad... i think its inherent...

Youve picked some good songs here, and elvis is of course the king! Runaway Bride was a good movie and had some good moments, like the one you cited and Ally is one of the most real and relateable characters in TV history, and if you werent her, you were someone on that cast.

As far as the sex thing goes? well, i tend to agree with most of what youre saying, but the thing is most folks dont do it to for the lack of anything. In fact its mostly becuase of an excess of freedom of thought and expression and feeling. Its like centuries of repression by society and religion and family pent up in their genes suddenly explodin out of them!

I love Becker and think the things they come up with are borderline brilliant sometimes, and this seems to be one of them.

Stick around, you have a nice blog. And I hope you feel better.

Cheers..

Ankit Tandon said...

Hmmm felt good to hear that somebody else watch Becker besides me ,about the whole sex thing I am reminded of a line which read something like this "Women want boyfriends who are caring,kind, understanding,compassionate but what they don't realize is that such guys aldready have a boyfriend " . So accept it ,this is how guys genetically are ,there is nothing you or I can do about it.Besides that, Shall we Dance was a good movie(not a life changing one but definitely watchable) ,realized for the first time that JLo can actually act.The sound track by Gabriel was good.